So…my last blog was about waiting for the promise of a car (read here on my new blog site).
But can God just GIVE/GIFT you with a car?
Rewind to my fast….I was asking God for movement. Well move He has. In crazy and unexpected ways. Make sure to read the ENTIRE blog, God brought in a twist….
Day 1: I meet a woman I’ll be working with. We got talking and sharing about life encouraging one another – because that’s just what you do. Three hours later I find her in my office. “I feel like God told me to give you my car I’m selling. It’s a 1999 Honda Accord that needs some work. So if you have the funds to fix it, I’ll give it to you, if you don’t I’ll sell it to this family and give you the money.”
SERIOUSLY?
What I’ve been praying for can actually happen? (I know I shouldn't be surprised but I was) I sat across from a woman who didn’t know me but was willing to give me her car.
We both took a night to pray about it and ask for the Lord’s direction.
God led me to Abraham and Isaac. Abraham WAITED a LONG time (like 25 years for the fullness of the promise) for his promise of being a Father to the nations. Without a son, his name won’t get carried on. Well, years later Isaac came along, a part of the promise. It didn't happen overnight and it didn’t stop at his birth. God asked Abraham to sacrifice his son. Kill him. Kill the only possibility he sees for the promise to come to pass. God was being specific in speaking to me. Will I carry this gift, this promise, to the altar and give it back to Him?
A few minutes later two friends I asked to pray sent me these:
“I see Abraham’s promise of heirs more numerable than sand…”
“Wait, if God said a blue Toyota, He will be faithful and deliver what HE spoke.”
Confirmation? Yeah…again specific.
As I read them I heard the Lord, “You can say yes and receive my meager rations, like Abraham’s first son, I will bless this but it is not my full promise. Or you can wait and receive my full inheritance and full abundance.”
WAIT. This is not your car.
You see He intended it to bless another family. He had it set apart for another family’s blessing and provision. It wasn’t for me to hijack out of fear – fear that this was my only option and this moment would never happen again.
This car isn’t just a car for me. This is a part of my story with the Lord. Before I went on the World Race my cars weren’t incredibly reliable. I had many car issues and breakdowns. My relationship with the Lord was somewhat similar. It often broke down and was damaged. But in these last few years much has changed, healing has come, and a new relationship has formed. A crazy trust, dependence, and strength. Part of waiting is trusting that He will bring me a new car (not nec 2012/2013 but one that hasn’t broken down) to mirror our new relationship. One that has been cared for, one that will not break down, one safe, and secure. He is teaching me I am worth it. It may sound crazy but I believe God is kind of crazy. He is radical and desires to bless his children.
But saying no to the Honda was hard! I wrestled and cried and prayed and cried. If this isn’t it after a year, will it actually come? Who is going to just give me a new(er) Toyota Camry? I’m going to look irresponsible for turning this down. No-one will believe in me if I make this decision, they will think I’m a spoiled brat, ungrateful. OH MY, I was a wreck for a hot minute. Notice my focus…all about me. Blah!
I got my focused back on Jesus and saw the reality. I saw and felt God show me it WAS possible. He graciously showed me that He is moving but this week wasn't His timing. He reminded me that He owns everything and that I can’t MAKE it happen on my own. I'm not in control of this one (or really anything). This was a women I talked to for 15 minutes who didn’t know my story but God spoke and she listened. She acted. God is the author and He is faithful, he is never late.
And so, I wait.
I continue to ask for rides and live in trust and dependence on God. And I continue to believe that He CAN just give you a car. What confirmation and reassurance. God is SO crazy cool like that, man does He love us!
I will receive $1,700 from this woman for a car fund or for another blessing God wants to pay forward. Often (or always) its not about us, this could be a blessing He wants to give someone else but encouraged me through it and was crazy cool and creative. I wait for my instruction and look forward to God leading me through this process and updating you all on His faithfulness and provision.
Now, I WAIT…..
What are you waiting for? What are you asking and believing for but have lost hope in? Ask Him for confirmation or encouragement, He loves you and will reassure you. He is always speaking and desires so much to have your full attention.
I wait in belief and expectation, will you wait with me?
Note: I have never prayed for something this “expensive” or big but as He has shown me its training ground for later when I am praying for and believing for land in other countries for Children’s Homes. I am learning to not settle but listen to His voice and wait for Him to provide what has been promised.
