I sit writing this blog on a balcony overlooking the
coastline with the sound of the waves washing up on the shore and the light of
the moon illuminating my keyboard. The stars are vast and as I look into the
sky the silhouette of the palm trees just top off the whole experience. It is a
picturesque ending to a wonderful weekend!
Our contact this month set up a weekend getaway to a house
on the beach in Jacmel. This isn’t just a normal town but a town tucked away in
the mountains on the coast….what? I know! I honestly struggled at first feeling
guilty that we were on a getaway but this is something God is trying to teach
me. He is showing me how to freely receive blessings from Him and from others.
And this was definitely a blessing! A house on the beach surrounded by
mountains! My two favorite things! I was definteily receiving this! 🙂
asking me to come and meet Him. From my bed I could see outside and the moon
was still out. I thought, really Lord? It’s not evening morning yet. He sweetly
asked me again, “come and meet with me.” I searched for my glasses and then
stumbled out onto the balcony with my sleeping bag in hand (it was kind of
chilly another rare gift). I spent the next hour on the balcony with the Lord.
During this time He designed a beautiful sunrise that I felt was just for me.
The sky turned from pink to orange to blue. Clouds filled the sky and created
an even more beautiful scene. As the sunrise continued God spoke sweetly to my
heart about who I am in Him and how I was created uniquely for a purpose and I needed to stop comparing myself or trying to become someone else. You see I recently
realized I entered the World Race with an expectation, but didn’t realize it. I
came in with an expectation of who I was to become. I came in and tried to
refine myself and become what and who I thought a successful racer should look like by month 11
– as if I should know, ha! I spent the first few weeks striving. Striving to
become something and not living in God’s grace. Saturday morning during the
sunrise God spoke to my heart and asked me to let it go and just be me. With the sunrise He was calling
me to arise into a new dawn. One of authenticity and raw beauty. To walk in my true self, not anyone else. To not compare or look to others for approval or acceptance but to look to Him. To lay down the weight I was carrying and rest in Him.
Saturday morning I did that.. I laid down my expectations of who I thought I needed to be and walked into just being me. And it feels good to be me again. To sit in my uniqueness and rejoice in how God has created me and look to Him for my World Race experience. It may not look like anyone else’s but I am not like anyone else. I am fearfully and wonderfully made….as Megan Dietrich, His beloved daughter…..
And that is who I crawled back into bed at 5:45am as. I crawled in with a new
and refreshed spirit. I crawled in as Megan Dietrich. Simply me.
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with me on Saturday but hopefully you can still grasp the beauty…
