Trust

     I grew up Christian, but even though I knew God was there, I didn’t surrender everything to Him. I always kept my worries and my burdens for myself, because I didn’t trust God. I worried about so many things, including things I had no control over. Worry consumed most of my thoughts. What should i do as a career. Will i be financially stable. Will I meet the right guy. Will I make the right decisions. How will people view my decisions.Many times I became paralyzed with fear over making the wrong decision, I wouldn’t make a decision at all. I refused to have opinions about things. I pushed decisions onto other people. I waited to see what everyone else picked or what some one would tell me I’m good at or that I would like something. Living this way led to a lot of fear and depression. 

     God has helped me to see that I was carrying burdens not meant for me. He wants us to be in a trusting relationship with Him. A relationship where we trust Him enough to cast our worries and burdens to Him. We don’t have to worry about tomorrow because we know there is already a plan in action that was perfectly formed for each of us. God also provides for His plans, not always in the way we think He should, but He always does what is best for us. 

     When I felt called to the World Race, at first I said NO. I said no because I was worried. I didn’t think it fit into the plan I had for my life. I didn’t think I had what it takes. I was scared of how it would change my life. And I knew there was no way I could raise the money to go. 

     The last part is true. There is no way I would be able to fund this journey on my own. But I was reminded that if God calls you to something, He is going to provide. He has worked in and through so many people to get me this far. With only a little less than a $1,000 until I am fully funded. He has provided more than I thought was possible and continues to surprise me. 

     I still have to be reminded to give it all up to God. But it’s getting easier. Life without having to carry all those burdens is so much lighter. It’s freeing and I get to focus my time and energy on the work God has for me in these countries each day.