A little over a year ago, I was lost. I was still deep in a battle
with depression and anxiety. Unsure of what to do for the future. Most
of my decisions were made out of fear. Fear of disappointing someone.
Fear of making the wrong choice. Fear that I wouldn’t be good enough.
Around March of last year,my church had the yearly missions week. I
felt a strong calling in my heart to do a missions trip. I’ve always
loved missions, but they never seemed to fit in to the schedule I had
for my life. I decided to research some missions trips, which brought
me to the world race.
Fast forward a little over a year later and here I am, in Africa. In a
different place physically, emotionally, and spiritually. God has
taught me so many things about myself and about Him. He brought to
light how fear was manipulating my life and has helped me break those
chains of fear and live in confidence of God’s work in my life. He has
changed how I view my depression and how I deal with it. It’s no
longer this dark hole I fall down and can’t get out, but when I feel
myself slip I cling to Him and rely on His strength.
I still don’t know exactly what I’m going to do when I get home or
what God is going to call me to, but it’s ok. I knowGod has a plan for
my life and I’m happy to enjoy the ride. There are passions that have
been placed on my heart, like a passion to disciple teenage girls, and
I know that God will use it do good, so there is no need to stress
about it now.
A couple months ago, I received a picture from a friend at church. It
was missions week again. She sent me a picture of the list of
missionaries the church supports. My name was on the list this year.
The past year has flown by and I never imagined one year would make
this much of a difference in my life. So if God has put something on
your heart, be obedient. Go for it. Go all out, because you don’t know
all the great God can do in you when you are obedient.
Love always,
Meg
