Today would have been my dad’s 85th birthday. He died when I was only 19 years old. Although he passed away so long ago I still feel the impact of his death. I wouldn’t say that I miss him everyday, but there is a hole in my heart. I’ve tried to fill that hole up with many different things. I’ve tried to fill that hole with attention from guys, excersise, food, and alcohol. Everything seeps through the cracks of that hole. His death left me feeling disoriented and afraid. I’ve recently realized something about my pattern of un-healthy behaviors. I now see that I was just trying to re-orient my life to something solid. I’ve recently been learning that I have a heavenly Father, and He wants me to orient my life toward Him. So that is what I have been trying to do and it is not easy, but it is freeing. As I sort through these things God is bringing healing to my life.
I am still moving forward with fundraising for the World Race. God has provided me with about 3800 dollars and I need to raise a total of 17,000 dollars. Would you consider a donation? Anything small even 5 or 10 dollars would mean the world to me. No pun intended! Thank you for taking the time to read this and please keep me in your prayers. Let me know how I can be praying for you too!
