Goodbyes.
Goodbyes can be all sorts of things.
They can be a casual thing, knowing you’ll see someone either in a few hours at church or in a few days for that coffee date you made cause it’s just been that long since you had a nice time out from the craziness of the world.
They can also be the worst things ever, suddenly finding that person you thought would be there forever suddenly peacing out cause…well, they’re just done with you. I’ve certainly had enough of those.
The good thing about those awful goodbyes is that you eventually realize just how good they were. Coming to realize that sometimes you just need to go a different direction than everyone else. That’s just life sometimes.
Another thing about goodbyes is that they can be super emotional, which I’ve come to realize this past week.
Rewind to the end of training camp, I didn’t really get…emotional per say. Yes, I was gonna miss my squad like crazy! After 10 INTENSE (definitely not using that word lightly) days, we all got so close and just didn’t want to leave each other. Yet, I didn’t feel anything emotional at the time. Maybe when you move so many times, you get used to the goodbyes after “getting used” to knowing someone.
After six weeks, the emotions finally came. I said my goodbyes to my brothers and my sister-in-law, walked upstairs and suddenly the emotions hit. I’d said goodbye to them before, going to college my first year. However, the World Race is a far cry from being at college just a few hours away from home.
Within the next 24 hours, I will be saying my hellos to my squad once again! I’ve already said my goodbyes to those from my two jobs (if you guys are reading this HI, I MISS YOU ALL ALREADY!!!). In a couple of days my final goodbyes will be to my parents. And I do NOT feel ready for that. They’ve been my biggest source of support, especially over the past few years for many reasons. I don’t even know what I would do without them. So it probably goes without saying that I look forward to enjoying every last moment I have with them before I leave for the next 11 months. And I look forward to doing the same thing when I return next year.
