It’s May, which means it’s Mental Health Awareness month! This is such an important topic to me, especially since my mental health can be a big struggle for me at times. In the spirit of vulnerability and transparency (two things I’m not entirely fond of) I’m going through one of those times.
I had an extremely rough day this past weekend to the point where I was crying so much that it hurt my stomach, and my stomach then hurt so much it made me nauseous. I spent the majority of the day praying then crying, worshipping then crying some more, and just kept praying, worshipping, and crying.
We were told Month 8 can be a very rough time for Racers, but I didn’t realize exactly how rough until that day came. I’ve woken up multiple days wishing I could just go home, just wanting to be done with the Race. I’ve felt a total lack of purpose in my role, and totally doubting my ability to serve.
Pretty upbeat blog, right?
So in this blog I ask for prayer for strength and perseverance to finish this Race. I just have 3 more months. Something to emphasize about this is that kind of how we get colds and flus, this has been kind of like that but with my mental health rather than physical.
I don’t want to just leave this post with that, so I want to take this time to reach out to others who might be going through something similar—doubting your purpose, your abilities, maybe you just feel so down and mentally exhausted.
What I did—and what I’d like to encourage you to do, Reader—is take a self care day. This can look like anything that helps you relax, process your thoughts, or just anything that helps to boost the positive chemicals in your brain. Self care can look like anything: hot shower, journaling your thoughts, talking it out with a trusted friend or family member, watching a movie with a nice snack and/or hot chocolate (I never do coffee), or even just taking time to pray and connect with God (that probably also goes with talking it out, but it’s important to say it specifically). Remember, mental health is just as vital as your physical health. God wants us to take care of both equally. He constructed our minds so intricately. Your mind is a beautiful thing. Please take care.
