I am a HUGE Elevation Worship fan. They are one of my favorite groups behind only Hillsong and Bethel. When their album There is a Cloud came out I downloaded it as soon as I found out. There were a few songs that I fell in love with right away (Fullness, There is a Cloud, and Do It Again). One song that I listened to many times but never fell in love was Here in the Presence. It was just not time for me to truly hear the song yet.
This past November I was reading Swipe Right by Levi Lusko. It was a great book that took on the biggest sins I have struggled with. While reading this book though I began to feel shame for things I had done in my past and just the person that I was before I truly came to know Christ. When I would read every night I would have YouTube playing Christian music in the background. Well that is when I was able to truly hear what the song Here in the Presence was singing about. Every single word of this song was attacking the shame that the devil had placed inside of me. But when I heard one lyric I couldn’t help but to start crying.
“I know your past is broken
You can move on its over now
Here in the presence of the Lord”
Because of things that have happened in the past and things that I have done I have always felt broken. I have felt like something was missing from me but there was something there that didn’t belong. That was shame. I was ashamed to think about the old Matt. I was ashamed to talk about the old Matt. But when I head “You can move on its over now” I knew it was Jesus telling me that I was made new in him and I had nothing to be ashamed of. The person who I was is completely different that who I am now. The past year in my life has been a huge growing experience and I find myself growing closer to the Lord every single day. I never thought that I would get over feeling broken but because of me surrendering certain things to the Lord that I held onto for so long I now feel complete. I feel like Jesus has taken my cracks and flaws and glued me back together just how he intends me to be.
