Already, a lot has happened since I started this journey with God. Some good, some bad, and some in between that just was. My beliefs, my preconceptions, my choices have been challenged. I have believed, I have doubted, and believed again, in Gods purposes in this season of my life.
As the new year approached, all I could think about was my shortcomings. I’ve been told by some that to raise money for the world race, I’d have to find a way to promote myself, to sell myself that would make me stand out. Why should someone give money to support you, rather than donate to another person or organization? Why should they support you, rather than Boy Scouts or the Red Cross? Convince them……
I didn’t know how. I couldn’t think of any reason that they should support me. What could I do that another, more experienced missionary couldn’t do better? From whom could I find support? With seven months left until launch, and only five months until the first major fundraising deadline of $5,000, all I cld see was the lack of funds I’ve raised, and the lack of support I’ve gathered. And all I could blame was myself.
And in that place, God spoke to me.
“Trust the heart that I have given you.”
I have had more set backs than I expected. I knew this would be hard, but you can never really understand something until you’ve lived it. However hard it gets, I know there is a season for everything. One season may be a dessert, while you are tested in the wasteland. But, that that dessert is preparation, God is preparing you for the next season, building you up to reap an even greater harvest. He sees the beginning, the path, and the goal. He has a plan. I can’t see it yet, but I trust in my Father. I trust in Him who has brought me this far, and will bring me further still. I trust in Him who made me, and did so with a PURPOSE. He lead me to the world race for a reason. I know that God is in this; He has confirmed it so many times. The only real variable is how much I am in this. How devoted am I to seeing God’s will carried out in this season?
What does it mean to dedicate yourself to a path, to make a firm decision? I think it means not always making the safe choice. I think it means stepping out of your comfort zone to do the things that need to be done. If God has called you into it, He will get you through it. This is the God I have decided to follow, to give my life to, to trust with my future, however uncertain it may be. It’s in His hands, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
