"But what if I lose everything?" I almost whisper to the counselor through my tears.  "What if I go and do all these things that I THINK I want to do, and I end up losing everything here?  What if I get there, and its not worth it, and I realize that what I wanted in life was in front of me the whole time, and then it may be too late?" I ask him honestly as my questions give shape to the fear. 

Pastor Ron pauses, and speaks in a way only he can.  "But then,  you will know."