Hey Blog,
Long time no see! I hope you are all having a great start to your 2020!
Lately, I’ve been having a lot of questions. I realized I’ve been pushing all of the things I’ve always wondered and doubted under the rug. But recently, I’ve been invited to ask all the questions. The scary, “How-does-God-exist-when-this-happens” type of questions. The questions that shake us to our core. I’ve always thought doubt was a bad word. That as a Christian, it is impossible to doubt and still have faith. But through being encouraged both by my world race squad mates, advisers, and my own mentor, I’ve realized that doubt can be a really healthy and good thing. Yeah, I just said that. Doubt can be good. I’ve learned that God already knows the things that are in our heart and when we let our big, hard, and scary questions fester, that it actually hardens our hearts. And who wants a hard heart? God desires to hear from us. He doesn’t want some scripted prayer, but rather one of emotion. The Bible very clearly shows how God wants to hear our thoughts. Jesus asks people questions all the time in the Bible. Jesus, God with flesh on, stops, and takes the time to sit with us and listen to our response. I mean, WHAT?! That’s pretty crazy. I think that through our doubt, when we bring it to God in prayer, that we can grow our faith exponentially. When we sit in the presence of the Holy Creator, the painter of the sky, the miraculous Potter that hand-crafted and molded each and every one of us, the God who knows the hairs on our head, how can we not have questions? If God was small enough that we could wrap our minds around every bit of life, every challenge, every sickness, every bit of Him, then he wouldn’t be the God of the Bible. God is so big, that we would never be able to understand everything and in that, I find immense comfort. He is steady, and faithful, and good, from everlasting to everlasting and that is all we need to know. Maybe as we continue to seek wisdom from God we will find the answers to our questions, maybe not, but even in the discomfort of the unknown God is still God. So I encourage you, ask all the questions to God. Bring every little thing you’ve ever wondered. I think you’ll be surprised to see the ways that He shows up in that. The ways he takes the very thing that has lead you to doubt and turn it into adoration of Him. You’re just calling home and asking a quick question. It’s not weird when you call your mom to ask how to cook a family recipe. Why? Because she’s an expert at the recipe. She created the recipe, she’s made it several times, and you trust that she will give you the recipe. So how is it any different with God? You just talk and ask Him everything and anything. Why? Because He is the Creator of Life, He hold the blueprints, and there is not a single thing that is not in His hands.
Keep asking! Keep seeking!
Mary
