“Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven“
I’m poor because I’m needy. I think every time my eyes are opened a little
more I see how truly needy I am. And even more I’m desperate. I’m
desperate for food and I’m desperate for water.
I’m hungry and I’m thirsty for the living God. I need my Lord and
Savior and I’m desperate for him and all he has to offer.
The truth is I am nothing and I can do nothing. But God he is
everything and he can do all things.
There are days when I think I can do it on my all. And there are days
where I think I am good enough and can love well enough to do it on my
own. It is those days where I fall flat on my face because I am
inadequate.
I can’t love these children the way they need to be loved because my
love is inadequate who I am is not enough.
Working with children helps me learn dependency on God because
children take all their needs to one who cares for them.
Independence what we are taught to desire and seek after. But the more
I know God the less I desire independence. Every day I have to lay
down my desire to be independent and choose again to depend on the
Lord.
I have to rely on his for everything. He is everything to me. I truly
am dependent upon him for everything. And in this I rejoice because I
know that God is better and I know that he knows better.
It is not enough to just need part of God or to simply need him part
of the time we have to need all of him always.
I need his mercy, I need his grace, and I need his love.
He is it. He is my hope. He is the hope that the world needs.
When I recognize that I am weak and that I am needy and that I am
needy all I can do it turn to God. That’s all we can do. But if I
don’t even recognize that I need him and if I don’t come to him with
my need why would he show up?
If you don’t need God then he isn’t going to intrude on your life.
If I choose not to try and stand on my own one day he won’t be there
to hold me up, he’ll let me fall, and it isn’t until I call on him for
help that he will pick me back up again.
I am dependent. And I’m thankful that even though I may be weak, I
serve a God whose power is perfected in my weakness.
I love you and miss you all so much. We made it safely to Thailand.
China Blogs and Pictures to come soon.
