I am struggling more than I thought I would with this whole idea of "blogging". This struggle is a little bit surprising to me since I literally have a stack of journals I have been keeping since I was about thirteen years old – that is thirteen years worth of complaining, rejoicing, and reflecting on my daily life. (sidenote: Just this second I had a mini panic attack at the thought of leaving those journals behind for 11 months and wondering who on this earth I can trust them to that won't read them!)
Anyway, the concept of reflective writing it not foreign to me, so I am trying to figure out why I have written and deleted about 10 posts in the past two days! What am I afraid of? So here are some of the fears I have come up with:
– Who Cares?
I have never been the most outgoing or talkative person in the room. I am a thinker – and I don't say this to assume that I am any more intelligent than the next person – sometimes I am just thinking about what I am going to wear the next day! But either way, I think a lot about what I say before I say it (or don't say it…) and this often comes across as shy, cold, or disinterested. So after years of being the "quiet one", I started to think that I didn't have anything to say at all! And here I am with my name at the top of a blog and it is ALL about what I have to say! Incredible daunting for someone like me! It is going to take some getting used to…
– What's Happening?
This blog is for the World Race (obviously). But I'm still here in Charleston, South Carolina, working at Taco Boy, sitting at Bakehouse, shopping at Harris Teeter…all incredibly uneventful activities! What on earth am I supposed to be saying in the 5 months BEFORE I actually leave?
See? I don't even have anything else to say about this topic!
Just sitting here, thinking about all the reasons I am not writing I have come up with one major reason that I should​ be writing!
This is a process. The World Race is not the beginning OR the end of my journey. The eleven months that I am traveling is just a part of God's plan for my life. It is small-minded to think that God can only work in the "BIG moments". You do not have to leave your town or even your neighborhood to see God's work or feel His Presence. He is working everywhere – even in what we see as mundane tasks of daily life! He is present in every moment, in every country, and in every heart.
So this blog is about me sharing how God is working in my life, even before I leave in January.
I am probably going to complain, rejoice, and document mundane daily occurrences, just like I did in my thirteen year old journals!
Please check in frequently and share what God is doing in your life as you comment!
