So I have an interview in 20 minutes and in this blank space I figured I might as well involve the masses in what God has done in me as PSL.
First, He broke down an incredible wall I had resurrected around my heart in the very short time I’ve been home. I didn’t want to come to PSL and go to prophetic rooms and do all of this other weird stuff around 300 people that literally don’t care anything at all about me. I sat in the back with my arms folded, quite typical for me. But then I felt a familiar prod at my heavily burdened heart, and I panicked. God, whatever you’re doing, stop it right now, I don’t want it. I don’t want you right now. I know you always want me, but right now I am angry at you for taking me back home into a space I didn’t want to step back into and now what? I’m surrounded by a bunch of hollering, spiritual psychos. Leave me alone.
My nasty attitude left pretty quickly after a one on one with a friend, and instead of locking up the doors, God slung them open. He put people in front of me and opportunities in front of me that a week ago I did not know about nor did I want. But a passion I found on the race with special needs children has embedded itself in my heart so strongly that I cannot shake it and through project searchlight God has shown me a path to take to start using my passion to further the Kingdom.
Bitterness can’t stop God. Neither can anger, resentment, feelings of abandonment. None of that can. Your unwillingness is the only thing that can keep you from your purpose.
Side note, PSL is actually really fun. I met SANTA, heard Gods voice in a new way, went to a prophetic room, laughed my face off at a comedy show, and has wisdom poured over me from start to finish.
PSL is the tool God used to kickstart a vision for my passion, and tools to make that vision come to life. I can’t wait for what’s next!
