Before I left America in October my squad had a couple of days together in Georgia to prepare for being out on the field called Launch. Beka works at AIM and worked closely with the my squad and the TLs before we left; she is one incredible woman! During team leader training, Beka introduced us to a new way to spend quiet time called guided prayer. This blog is dedicated to my personal experience during guided prayer.
To set the scene, Beka asked each for us to find space in the room where we can focus and be alone with God. I went to the corner of the room, laid down and closed my eyes. She then asked a series of questions and gave space after each of them for us to dig in.
Here is the adventure I went on with Jesus, the Holy Spirit and my Father!
Picture yourself alone anywhere you want to be
I am relaxing peacefully in my ENO in a grove of aspen trees about halfway up Pagosa Peak in Colorado. I am watching the leaves dance in the wind; I am surrounded with the sound of nature living and singing its song. The air is crisp, perfect for a sweater and a blanket with the colors of fall all around.
Invite Jesus to come. Where is He? What does He look like?
Jesus comes and snuggles up in the blanket with me. He is in a sweatshirt and jeans and is barefoot. I immediately feel an overwhelming amount of comfort and safety that I didn’t feel before. It feels like home.
Just sit with Jesus. Don’t say anything.
Ask Jesus what He wants to say to you.
Jesus in a warm, gentle voice: “I want more of this”
Do you have any questions for Jesus?
Me: “How do I do this? How do I hear you? How can I make this happen more?”
Jesus just smiles back at me.
Ask Jesus to show you the Holy Spirit. Where is the Holy Spirit?
All of a sudden (but also gradually), I can see a dull light around me that is overwhelmed by the light bursting from inside Jesus. The light is shining so bright that soon I do not see Jesus anymore. An energetic light is now sitting in the hammock across from me.
Sit with the Holy Spirit. Don’t say anything.
As we sit together, I am in awe and captivated by what and who the Holy Spirit is.
Ask the Holy Spirit what it has to say.
Holy Spirit, not necessarily with words but soul to soul: “I am how you spend time with Jesus. I am your guide”
Do you have any questions for the Holy Spirit?
Me: How do I hear from you? Can you meet me where I can here you? Can you help me see you and be with you? Don’t let me shy away”
Ask the Holy Spirit to take you to God. Where is He?
The Holy Spirit swiftly picks me up and carries me to the top of Pagosa Peak. God is patiently sitting on a rock waiting for me. I am not exhausted as I normally am from climbing to the peak of a mountain. No, this time I didn’t have to work to get to the top. But I am out of breath because of the shock of being in His presence. I wish I could give words to what He looked like or what His presences is like but none would do Him justice.
Ask God what He wants to say to you?
God in a firm, booming, yet loving voice that gives me the chills: “STOP! I love YOU!”
What do you have to ask/say to God?
Me: “How do I stop? All I know is to work and try and earn acceptance and love. Please show me this love in a way I can receive it. Revel it slowly to me. Help me see me through your eyes.”
Wow! The past few days I have been reliving this memory over and over and learn something new every time! But what is more crazy is this happened days before I left America and I forgot about it until a week ago when God politely reminded me. How is it possible that a time so powerful, inspiring and unlike anything I have ever experienced before could be so quickly forgotten?? The level of intimacy that was waiting for me was deeper than I have imagined and yet I let it fall away.
THANK YOU God for remembering every second. Thank you for diligently and purposefully answering my questions and holding to the promises you made to me even when I have forgotten them. Thank you for loving me and seeing me to remind me of your faithfulness.
God knew what I was going to need 2 months before I had a clue. I am constantly overwhelmed with Gods attention to detail. The Trinity is intimate, intentional and specific with every single one of us.
I am still learning how to sit with Jesus, follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit and receive the love the Lord has for me. But, I am on the edge of my seat every morning when I get to hang out with my Father, His Son, and the Holy Spirit.
Life with them is a never ending adventure that you will never regret saying yes to! They are ready when you are!
Love you all and Gig’em to all my Aggies out there!!!!! What. A. Game!
Martha Kuhn
Prayer Warriors:
As we get close to leaving Honduras pray that our time at ministry would be sweet and fruitful. Also that we would make the most of our time with the whole squad together before we go our separate ways again in El Salvador.
