Since becoming a follower of Christ, I have studied Scripture and God has spoken to me through His Word. But, in these last two weeks, God’s word has come to life to me in the most real way.
I attend this men’s group at my church every Monday night. We go through the book of Mark seeking to do 3 things 1: Hear God’s Word 2: Do God’s Word 3: Help others hear and do God’s Word. We have a teacher and he gives us “ice breaker” questions so that we get to know each other a little more. There are different tables that you can sit at to fellowship with different guys and talk through where you are in your walk with the Lord and what you see Him doing in your life.
A couple of days after I found out that I got accepted to The World Race, I attended this men’s group. That night one of the ice breaker questions was “If God were do ask you to do something huge and uncomfortable, what would be your fears?” I told my table that my fear would be leaving my biological family for a long period of time. Not being able to be close by whenever they need me scares me a lot. I fear that they’ll think I don’t love them like I used to and they won’t understand why. As the night went on we get to Mark 10:29, and God spoke to me so clearly that it brought me to tears. Mark 10:29-31, Jesus says, “Truly I tell you, no one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mothers or fathers or children or fields for me and the Gospel will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age; homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, and fields along with persecutions and in the age to come eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and the last first.” It was clear through this passage that God was confirming for me to be on The World Race, to share the Gospel with the world and to trust Him with my biological family. After sharing this with the guys at my table I asked that they would pray for me. Pray that I would take God at His word and trust this scripture.
Later on that night I got a text from my biological sister saying that my mom is in the ER, she has been having this pain in her arm and has this knot on her breast. My mind immediately went to negative so I rushed over to the hospital to be with her. We were hoping that the knot was just an infection. The doctor said that it wasn’t an infection, and in fact it looks cancerous. About a week later we found out that my mom is sicker than we thought she was and that she has stage 4 breast cancer.
My first instinct to finding that out was even more fear of leaving because my mom doesn’t know Jesus and if the worst were to happen to her it just wouldn’t settle well with me knowing that I’ve had so many opportunities to share Christ with her. Before leaving the ER that night I got to pray over her and I remember saying, “God this is hard for me, but I trust You with her so I’m laying at Your feet because I know that You will take care of her. More than anyone I know, I know that You heal spiritually and physically and she’s in need of you for both.” Through that prayer God has given me a great peace over this whole situation. God is showing me how to love her differently through this and there is now no fear with sharing with her what he’s doing in my life and telling her about Him!
So, will you join me in praying for my biological mom? Pray for her salvation and for healing if it is God’s will. And pray for me, as I walk out Mark 10:29 in a real way.
