As far back as I can remember when I had a thought, before it would make its way to my mouth I always heard this voice in my head that said, “No you shouldn’t say that, that’s stupid.” This caused me to not voice a lot of ideas or thoughts because I believed that voice.
Some time after I was adopted I kept having major challenges by not being a verbal processor. My parents would always ask me simple questions about what I was thinking, and I wouldn’t answer because I thought it was stupid or that I just shouldn’t say it. They would always tell me, “Son you have a voice, and you need to search deeply for it because what you have to say matters.” Even then I never searched for it because if I’m totally honest I didn’t believe that I had a voice and thought that what I said didn’t matter no matter how many times they would tell met that it did because I’ve heard that voice for so long.
Well, last week while I was at training camp for The World Race, God’s power broke through that voice in my head. We were doing a team building activity and were given a task to make a square out of rope while blindfolded in a certain amount of time. While everyone on the team started throwing out ideas, I just sat there listening. I had an idea on how to make that rope a square but that all-too-familiar voice came behind my idea whispering to me, “Nah you shouldn’t say that, that’s stupid.” Time ran out and we didn’t complete the task. I thought now would be a great idea to see if my idea would have worked so we tried it as a team and turns out it did work. In that moment I was super disappointed in myself for not saying it, for once again believing that lie. I felt like I let my team down. Immediately I heard God say to me what my parents have been telling me for the past six years. “Son you have a voice and what you have to say matters.”
I GOT IT! It finally stuck. I DO have a voice. What I have to say DOES matter! God wants to use MY VOICE on this World Race to tell the story of all He has done IN and THROUGH my life!
I am ready to go and use my voice for the Kingdom of God!
We launch in T-minus 31 days!!! Will you commit to pray for me?
Even though I am fully funded with Adventures in Missions, there are a few things I still need before I leave: vaccinations, money for my personal monthly needs while on the field, packing cubes and other personal items. I am working until I leave and saving all I can. If you want to support my adventure, you still can with cash or check made out to me.
I’m so grateful and blown away with how much people have given for me!
