Let’s just say the last few months have been a rocky road. Although, I have been feeling confidence in my growing faith with God, I have had more upsets than I could have foreseen coming.
Most people who know me, know that I bottle things up, and then I have these streaks of being negative and hits of misplaced anger. Often people don’t see me break down, and they think I am this strong soul, but let me tell you there has been so many times where I have broken down, I just do it alone, and when I don’t I become negative and angry. This is something that I have been working on the most in the last few years. The most success I have had with fixing this characteristic of mine has been in the last few months, when I was accepted to go on the WR.
My relationship with God wasn’t as strong as it needed to be when I was accepted…almost too faint of a relationship. Being accepted, and committed to the WR is probably one of the best things that has happened in my life-not being cliché. God let me know that I needed to wake up, and it was time (or long due) for me to really devote my life to the Lord my Savior. I think God has given me these obstacle the last few months to grow closer to Him, to appreciate Him, and to live for Him. God knows that I can’t do this alone (by this I mean getting through life without Him, going on the race without Him). God has given me people to show me this. With the darkness surrounding my heart, I have been looking to certain people who God shines through who have been filling my bleeding heart with Gods light.
Knowing that I have so many supporters (which I didn’t know I had before committing to the race), I’d like to give a special thanks to a few people who have been the biggest contributors in my life towards my faith, happiness, comfort, etc. during this dark time (some through life as a whole as well).
Thank you Auntie Juli, not for just lately, but thank you for being someone who has always given me opportunities, someone I can always look up to, and someone who always has an open shoulder that my head fits perfectly on. Not only those few things, but thank you for being the strongest contributor for my faith. When I look at you, you are who I want to be; with your faith, and the adventure you seek. I want to live a faithful adventurous life like you.
Thank you Suzie, Mike, and Becca. As the years have gone by our friendship has dug its way in my heart with a deeper value of love. With open hands and open doors to your home, I feel loved, filling a void that I sometimes miss from places where it should be coming from. Know that your love for me, and for each other, fuels me with the energy I need to strive for the things I want. I will never look past our friendship.
Thank you Emily. A friendship which has almost lasted my lifetime. No matter where we are in our lives I know you’re only a call away. You always know what to say, and you’re always honest-even when it’s the tough truths. You faith is something I admire. You and your family will be in my hearts forever.
Thank you Ryan, even with terrible timing. I’m thankful that even through this difficult time, you’re someone I can look to, to escape reality. Also, thank you for helping me start the process of erasing some of the ugly habits I have had for too long.
Thank you Lizzy, Bailey, Andrea, Kera, aunties and uncles, and so many others for being a part of this journey, but also a part of my life so far.
Thank you anon supports, and other family and friends who have supported me, through prayer, love, and through donations.
I ask for others to support in any way they can, because some of those people I appreciate the most haven’t been able to donate money, but what they have given me speaks on greater words than I can fathom. Anything is appreciated.
Love,
Mar
