The last few weeks have been filled to the brim with crazy. Our teams are tired, the struggle feels real some days, and the finish line is near. We have had a lot of sickness, unfortunate circumstances, and difficult decisions to face since we’ve been in Nicaragua.
Lately there have been a lot of days where I have felt just completely overwhelmed, and I can’t tell anymore if I even want to be here. Then, just as things feel too heavy for me to carry and I have nothing left to give, God gives me this picture:
You know when the moon is full, big and bright and high up in the sky? It illuminates the dark night and I don’t even need my headlamp to walk to the toilet at the end of our road. But, if I put my thumb up in front of my face, it can block out the entire moon. My thumb is pretty small and that moon is pretty big, but from my perspective that moon disappears completely behind my thumb.
God has been revealing to me that I have been allowing my present circumstances and challenges to look much bigger than they are, and they are blocking my view of what I really should be looking at: Eternity, and Jesus on the cross. I needed to alter my perspective so I could get eternity back in my sights. The things I have on my plate right now are super important, but when I am focused on the most important thing, it changes how I make decisions, react and respond to things, and how much I let these things affect me.
There are instances when the things going on around me have me wondering about my purpose and second guessing why I am here. What I am trying to remember is that situations and other people do not dictate my purpose- my purpose hasn’t ever changed throughout this journey. God created me with a purpose in mind, bad days, weeks, months, or seasons won’t ever change or take away from it.
In 5 weeks, I’ll be headed back home and I am pretty excited about it! I need to fundraise about $700 more to be fully funded before heading home! If you’d like to support me, you can message me or do so on this page where it says “Donate!”
Please pray for our squad- that we finish this thing well!
