Last April, at training camp, I prophesied over people pretty much for the first time. Speaking life over someone else, just telling them who they were despite not knowing so much as their name sometimes, building them up and pushing them towards the greatness Christ put in them – it came pretty naturally. I just told people truth about themselves I knew in my spirit was true. I figured it out later that I’d thought and known these types of things about people most of my life, this was just the first time I gave proper voice to it as a revelation from God meant for that person to hear. The most amazing part of it for me though was that doing it was just…where I belonged. A piece that had been missing my whole life just fell into place and I discovered one part of my whole reason for being here on earth. Those moments where I just let God’s spirit speak through me in simple truths had me right where I belong. And at various times this year, whether just talking to someone and telling them what I could see in them or in full blown times of prophesying, I’ve been seeking to just speak the things God lays on my heart to speak.Since getting home, I haven’t been doing this. It’s what got me thinking about Simon Peter (see last blog), how when it’s comfortable and he was around Jesus it was natural and easy, but when faced with persecution apart from Jesus he buckled. When I was with my team, even if it might mean inviting outside persecution, I could step up and say things with absolute trust and abandonment because they were there to remind me who I was relying on, who’s battle it really is. Here at home I have less immediately accessible back up, and I buckle. I hold back. Like Peter did after Jesus’ death, I’ve gone back to being a fisherman, doing things I already knew before and not living as I’ve been shown to live. But I know I’m meant for more. We all are. I’m just working on how to remember that every morning, how to listen in every moment again and live as the royal child of God I am – taking my inheritence, the Kingdom of God, everywhere I go, clinging to the promises of God and the things He has spoken over my life through our family.
I’m a fire,
I’m a flood,
I’m a revolution.
I’m a war,
already won,
I’m a revolution!
–Starfield
