You know when you hold onto things and it eventually just becomes who you are, then you try and figure out why you cannot seem to change. Then you live with a bunch of guys for a month and part of it consists of trekking in the Nepali Himalayas next to the Tibet border and get convicted that you don’t open up. Well God did it again haha!!!
So this month has been manistry which is when all the guys on the squad get together and do ministry together for the month. It has been such a great time of just being around the bros, doing bro things (I would tell you more about it, but I would be breaking the bro code!!) I have really enjoyed seeing these men come closer to God and be able to be who they are meant to be!! Part of this has been vulnerability, and since you know guys are notorious for being open…..haha…. This has all been in an area that was the epicenter of the earthquakes here in Nepal, and the destruction is still prevalent.
I have shared all of me, and what has come out of it is being able to walk in freedom!! This whole race has been me trying to figure this thing called life out. I have struggled with God why I cant seem to grow past my past. Why I can’t seem to be the person God has called me to be, and it finally came to a head and broke!!
When we trekked this last week we went up a mountain into a village and danced and worshiped with the people in that village, then we went down the mountain and went up another one. It was physically demanding, and mentally draining. I came to a point where I was just so tired I didn’t want to say another word. God opened a venue for me to figure things out though…When we were walking there was a lot of time to talk with the guys and through these conversations I realized that I needed to let go of everything that I have been holding onto. I didn’t have any idea how to do that, but God revealed to me that all I need to do is tell people, and he will do the rest. Well like every time that God asks me to do something and I do, he showed up and rocked my world. I am finally able to walk around and I have let go of my past, I have let go of everything that I was, I have started my journey officially to be the man that God has called me to be!!
Hebrews 10:32-39
32 But call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions; 33 Partly, whilst ye were made a gazing stock both by reproaches and afflictions; and partly, whilst ye became companions of them that were so used.34 For ye had compassion of me in my bonds, and took joyfully the spoiling of your goods, knowing in yourselves that ye have in heaven a better and an enduring substance.35 Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.36 For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.37 For yet a little while, and he that shall come will come, and will not tarry.38 Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him.39 But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul.
These versus have really been speaking to me and God pointed it out and broke me. Its been so incredible to be able to really feel different and know that I am!!!! Its been a hard journey, but I am so ready to take on what ever is next!!
Outside of that this month has really been cool. Riding on top of buses through the city and doing construction! Getting to know the Nepali people and going to an international church on sundays!! Its been awesome to see what God has been doing in this country even in the earthquake ridden areas. There is a lot of need in this country, and if you could pray along with me for this country it would be amazing!!
Thank you so much for your support and prayers!! I am $3200 away from being fully funded and I need to be fully funded by the 31st which is just 11 days away, if you could pray about supporting me I would greatly appreciate it!!
