For the longest time I thought that what God told me was private and our secret. Those were my words, my visions, my private intimate moment. When the Lord would ask me to share those private moments with people I would try to share in such a way that I could get the message across and still have it be private. But since being on the race I have learned differently.
When I got on the race I felt as if people were surprised I struggled in different ways than most people were. I had already experienced most of these things with YWAM so I was in a different season than most. I started to share my experiences and some private moments about how God helped me with my transition into life in the field. One day I felt as if I was being judged in how “I thought I had all the answers.” I struggled a lot with this, it was already hard for me to share with people in the first place. I took it to the Lord and as I was talking to Him about what I was feeling. I said with frustration, “They didn’t see the tears. They didn’t see the constant surrendering. They didn’t see the struggle. They didn’t see what took place in the secret place, they only see the outcome.” And it hit me. My private moments are not meant to be private. What happens in the secret place should be yelled from the top of the mountains and it was selfish of me if I didn’t.
Let me put it like this. Great worship bands like Hillsong and Jesus Culture write powerful, beautiful songs. What makes them such powerful songs is the fact that they are stories of the seasons they have been in. Every season comes with its own struggles and change. These are things they had to take into the secret place and work out with the Lord. They most likely process through music, therefor songs come out of it. I picture people from these bands sitting alone with arms stretched high calling out to the Lord with their voices, guitars, pianos, in spontaneous worship pouring out their hearts. Then they take these heart cries and share them with the world. In a way those heart cries guides us into the throne room where we can pour out our own hearts cries. These are private moments. These are the things that have power and they allow us into that.
Im sure as we’ve all gotten older we have said, “I wish someone would have told me this along time ago.” So why wouldn’t you be that somebody for someone else? As we get older we become wiser but with wisdom is responsibility. We have a responsibility to teach others what we know and to help guide them along side of Holy Spirit. Im not saying give people the quick answer, Im saying be sensitive to the Holy Spirit and be ready to share your private moments.
