So I although I have been officially accepted to the World Race for a few months now, I have been slacking in the blogging department. I have intentions of blogging and ideas of things to say, but the time to sit, collect my thoughts, and write comes very rarely. So here I am with a few moments and the opportunity to blog about my life as future world racer.
At the moment I am currently only around four months away from my adventure of a lifetime, and I am freaking out! My emotions are conflicting. I am so extremely excited and impatient to leave in January, but on the other hand I am overwhelmed by what needs to be done, and a bit afraid. To be honest, most of my time Is spent being extremely excited, I say things like "Next year at this time I'm going to be in Moldova!" (honestly though, how many people get to say that!!!?!), but I do have moments of doubt where I wonder what I got myself into! One thing is constant though, there never is a moment where I doubt that God is sending me.
Throughout this whole process (fear and all) God has shown him self so strong. He has blessed me with encouraging people, financial blessings, and words of peace from Him. One word in particular that speaks to me whenever I begin to doubt is the end of Judges 6:14 which says "Am I not sending you?" In this verse God is speaking to Gideon about leading an army. I love the story of Gideon because while reading it you can just sense his apprehension. He asked God for multiple signs, because one sign for God just wasn't enough. At times I am Gideon. What reassures me the most is that God never once gave up on Gideon. He didn't say "you know what you ask too many questions, so I changed my mind" No He kept proving himself to Gideon just like He keeps proving himself to me.
I am weak, and at times I can be straight up afraid, but I have a Strong God who loves me and hasn't given up on me yet. So then I believe that if God called me, He will also prepare me!
