The last 2 hour flight felt like the longest. Even after traveling for 40+ hours. My nerves were going everywhere and I honestly felt like I could have thrown up any second. I wasn't sure how to react or respond. I was so tired I couldn't stand it, but sleep definitely wouldn't happen because of nerves.
Once I landed I walked so fast out of that plane. I see my tall dad and the crowd behind him and literally start leaping for joy. People behind me are laughing but they can see the reasons why.
I see a sign my bf4l Kenzie made and it said "Welcome Home Diva" and she's holding flowers. Tears flowed and so did adrenaline. I was shaking but so excited to hug my family and friends.
Since I've been home, I have felt so loved! I was welcomed home in a sincere way and I am so blessed. I came home to a new room, too. I had prayed and asked The Lord for this new bedspread I wanted and had only told my mom. Well it turns out my friends had already picked it out and purchased it! God knows my heart and is so sweet.
Isn't it amazing and peaceful? Ahhh 🙂
Everything is great but in the midst of all of this, I'm still having my rough moments. For the past 3 nights I've been having nightmares. You know those dreams that are so intense you wake up sweating and your heart pounding? Yeah, gross. The moments I'm alone, I'm not too sure what to do with myself. My dad finally said for me to just sit still but good luck with that one. My thoughts are overwhelming. I still don't have much lined up. I know I need to rest but I guess I'm not really sure how to anymore! People have joked about things that are sensitive to my heart and past experiences.
*sigh*
My tired eyes. But I always say, put a little lipstick on and it makes everything better. 🙂
Through all of this, there is so much grace. It's so important to cling on to my solid foundation in Jesus during this time. I have an amazing support system that I'm extremely thankful for. Let the thank you letters road trips begin!
The Lord showed me Romans 12 a million times yesterday and it's very fitting for my season now.
Romans 12:9-18;21
9 Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. 10 Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. 11 Do not be lacking in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord. 12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. 13 Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality.
14 Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. 15 Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. 16 Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly.Never be wise in your own sight. 17 Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. 18 If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. ….. 21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
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