Why the World Race?
Well, as most of you know me and my indecisive personality, let me explain why I chose the World Race. If you don't know what the World Race is, it is where you will go on a mission to 11 countries in 11 months. Crazy, huh? I recently went through YWAM (Youth With A Mission) and developed a heart for the nations. A heart that wants to bring hope to the hopeless and to love on the ones that have never been loved. I want my hugs to be the best things they receive. When Jesus hugs his children, you can feel it. It is a feeling that is so overwhelming, you never want to let go. HE will NEVER let go of YOU. He is here, all around, never far away. Anyways, I have visited some schools and looked at their missions degrees. I found some neat programs, but nothing in my heart stirred. You know when a woman finds her wedding dress and she gets that "feeling"? Yeah, none of that. One night I was reading my dear friend, Elizabeth Huff's, blog post and the world race fell so heavy on my heart that I couldn't sleep the whole night. I also had to work at 8 A.M.
So the whole day I was thinking about the World Race. It actually seems pretty intimidating. But for a strait week I couldn't sleep, I didn't have an appetite, my dreams for my life were going crazy, my heart raced like it had never before. That was the "feeling" I had been praying for. As most of you know, I am quite emotional. God uses that, okay? Haha. Right when I decided to apply, fear came over me so fast. I had JUST sent out support letters not too long ago for YWAM, the world tells me I need to go to school, I have to raise a huge amount of money, I mean, all these thoughts went through my head. Well, I went for it and applied and waited for an interview.
I was nervous to tell my parents. I want to make them proud. I wanted to tell them at a good time so I asked the Lord when to do it. Then I had a dream about how I would tell my mom and how she would respond. I woke up saying, "Uhh, really God? Is this from You?" I kept it in my heart and prayed more about it, the next thing I know, I'm telling my mom. The cool thing is, everything that happened in my dream happened in REAL LIFE! GOD IS SO GOOD! I cried with happy tears and was so encouraged. Next, after you apply you have to make a $150 deposit in two weeks. I had been dog/house sitting so I had the money, but God said not for me or my parents to put any money down. It's so funny when you question God. He always seems to blow your mind! Duh, He's an ALMIGHTY GOD!
The next thing I know is that I have another dream. Call me insane but this is all really happening. I'm still feeling like I'm going crazy but it's just the awesome life I live! So I'm a napper, I sleep a lot. This day I was taking a nap and at the very end I had a dream that this old man with the whitest hair gave me my deposit. I woke up asking God if a random old guy was going to give me my money. God put on my heart that it wasn't just ONE random man, it was going to be multiple strangers. I go along with it and keep praying about it. I am taking classes here at the community college in Amarillo and I had mentioned that I am doing this to everyone. On the last day, my classmates donated money. Even my professor! Then I went to church on Sunday and my best friend, Kathryn, pulled me up in front of the congregation. The Lord's presence was so heavy I could barely speak, also with nerves. Once I got my words out, barely, people came to pray over me. Then Kathryn said if you feel led to give then go ahead. I held out my hands to receive from the Lord and people from left and right started giving. I was trembling. I couldn't believe what was happening! HOLY MOLY! I was so happy and humbled and so many other emotions! My mascara was for sure everywhere. THEN at work, a church that I work at gave an amazing donation! I now I have my second deadline for the World Race!
So, this is why I chose the World Race. I am a missionary. This isn't just a la-de-da trip, this is my life. My calling. My dream. To go out into the world in the darkest areas and fill the need of other people. I want to be a blessing!
God is faithful. Always. I sent my support letters on Friday. If you would like one, please let me know! This is a remarkable journey coming up. I feel like this is going to be a testimony to many people. I am so blessed and in awe of the power of God. Prayer works, y'all!
