I'm not just traveling around the world touring the nations. I'm constantly pouring my heart into people. I'm checking my heart to see when I'm in the wrong. I'm a listening ear even when I'm tired. Schedules change all the time. Culture shock is hard to get over, especially when the men are inappropriate because of your skin color . Living in community isn't graceful at times. Communication is always questioned. Faiths aren't the same and ideas are different. Loneliness occurs even when you're surrounded by people. It's extremely uncomfortable being sick in a foreign place when you just want your mom. Food is different, sometimes it's mystery meat sitting in front of you. Language barriers are frustrating. Some of the ministry opportunities aren't very enjoyable. Washing your clothes by hand and transportation by foot quickly become the norm. It's not easy relying on God for all of your necessities and for money. I could go on with some uncomfortable situations, that is just a few.
Being a missionary is hard.
Why did I choose this "job/lifestyle"? Because through all of the chaos, God transcends all of my discomforts and brings me reassurance on why my heart is so passionate for the world. The Lord has told me over and over again, "enjoy the moment you're in at this time, right now." He has chosen me to do the impossible. He has chosen me to go and make disciples of the nations. He has chosen me to go to the dark places and bring my smile and joy. He cares about my feelings. He cares about my brokenness and heartaches. He protects me in so many ways, and some ways I'm not even aware of. He has made my "little" voice a powerful one. He made my eyes to see into the depths of situations. God is bigger than any language barrier and skin color. He is good, all the time. The Creator of all things is teaching me hard lessons that will stick with me for the rest of my life. Proverbs 28:1 says "the righteous are as bold as lions", and that's what I strive for every day!
Our ministry in El Salvador has been so amazing. We have gone to schools to teach english and perform skits for the students. I feel like a movie star each time! We have gone to villages to invite people to come to a program we've prepared and to pray for them. I've seen people gives their lives to The Lord and bodies healed! It becomes an every day thing when you want to see the glory of God come forth!
I do have some prayer requests. I have injured my foot doing one of the skits and it hurts to walk. Please pray for healing. Also, many people from my squad/team are sick! Many have had to stay behind to rest. The last thing, the next deadline is April 1st for $11,000. Some of my teammates are still needed to reach that deadline. Pray for the miraculous to happen! We aren't going to let anyone go home because of this!
Love y'all with my whole heart!
