As I have said before, I will be getting my associates in social work this December (hopefully). Most of the classes I'm taking involve psychology of some kind and you are required to interact with your classmates. I love my classes so much, but something has struck my heart and it has hurt. Most of my classmates in this particular class I'm taking, Human Development and Personal Adjustment, have gone to some kind of therapy, including myself. When I was about 13/14, I was severely depressed and had major anxiety attacks which led to suicidal thoughts etc. I went to counseling, and for me, the only thing that could help me was the Lord. I am totally free of depression and anxiety! Of course, I have my break downs and my emotions, just like everyone else. This past week was one of the worst. I'm trying to fundraise for the WR, do well in school, love God and be still, be a friend, basically, DO LIFE. I felt overwhelmed and pretty insecure. I'm thankful for God's redeeming grace, mercy, power, strength, and love.
What I'm trying to say is, brothers and sisters, we need to ENCOURAGE everyone around us. I walk around my campus and people aren't happy. Some of my classmates have 4 kids, aren't married, trying to do school, and once again, LIFE. How can I help these people around me? How can I brighten their day? God, how can you use me? Even when I'm in my darkest, God is there. I can't get away from Him. I don't ever want to get away from Him. His presence is contagious, uplifting, peaceful, fun, soothing, compassionate, and I could go on forever. I have so much hope for people. Oh my heart, how I care about people's dreams and visions for their lives. I believe in people. I see the potential. I do long for justice, but you still need to pray for the persecutor.
During this long, emotional week, the Lord showed me so much love with my friends around me. I tend to lean on people's confirmation. It's not what I base my life on, but it's nice hearing that you are cared for, ya know? Anyways. God has sent me friends and family that say they love me every day. There is not a phone conversation that's not ended with "okay bye I love you". I am beyond grateful. Body of Christ, this is how we need to live. In LOVE. In love with our Creator, in love with the people around us. Be kind to your neighbor. The Lord told me to start giving compliments to more people. So, if you hear me say you look nice, I fully believe it's what the Lord thinks of you. That is what my heart is feeling. Love and hurt for the depressed. I am healed by the blood of the Lamb, and you can be too. There is hope for you, beloved.
Support update: I have about $6,000! WOOHOO!! I leave for camp in less than a month, WOW! Some of the checks were written out in my name, and they had to be sent back. If you feel led to support me, please make the check out to Adventures in Missions and write on the slip that was provided or another piece of paper that it's for me 🙂
Thank you guys, thank you for helping me with my dreams!
Check out this video, it is awesome, and describes my Father pretty well! 🙂
http://youtu.be/yzqTFNfeDnE
