I have begun to encounter many questions during these past few weeks.
“Why leave behind your mission field here?”
“What about your career?”
“What is your plan when you come back?”
I wasn’t naïve to think that I wouldn’t encounter these questions, I have just been completely consumed in the moment of what God is doing in my life, that I haven’t begun to question saying “YES” or what my future is. I still have dreams and career goals for when I return. I know that God has all of that worked out already!
My life is not stuck on PAUSE…. instead it is PLAYING what I want to pour my life into!
I came across a story that was similar to mine and she nailed exactly what I was feeling.
“It wasn’t like I woke up with an epiphany one day and decided to change my entire life. Instead it was a gradual realization that days and months were passing, and I hadn’t been doing things that make my knees weak and release the passion stored up in my bones.” Venture Magazine
I love planning activities and making residents grin at silly sayings and expressions…. I love listening to their stories and getting them engaged in their day to day routines and seeing excitement in their eyes! I absolutely treasure each of the friendships that I have made! Even though they seem to think they won’t be here when I return, I know their stories will forever be with me.
But I have gotten comfortable, I don’t remember a story in the Bible where God was calling someone to be “comfortable.” He calls us out of our comfort to learn, to fail, to succeed, to get our hands dirty, to be different. So even though I am not entirely sure where this journey leads I have completely handed it all to God!
God will use this experience to fuel and reshape my heart in ways I cannot imagine, to make me grow closer to Him and trust Him more. So right now I don’t have answers to every detail of what the future holds, but I do know who holds my future!
I want to live by spending my days doing the things that bring me incomparable joy and life that ignites others to be empowered by Christ!
