Discovering Him in the Unknown

If I form a habit of obeying His instruction for my day today, I will develop an awareness of His direction for tomorrow.

 

From my interview process to now on month three I have never known the outcome. I don’t know how the story ends. But I chose to step out in faith that He would use me to further His Kingdom.

I have seen my faith tested in a variety of ways. Saying “yes” to 11 months and 11 countries when influential people in my life haven’t supported my decision.

To believing my story had power in the dance bar restaurants in Nepal.

Followed by speaking prayers of healing and provision over the villages of India.

Now in Thailand, where we aren’t just seen as foreigners by our envied skin but foreigners by our less than popular faith. We are speaking truth and expressing love to a nation where only 1% believe God’s unconditional love for them.

I have made it a high priority in my life to walk in God’s Will. I want my life to be about stepping into the places where God is working and moving and joining Him. This year that is stepping into the shoes of a missionary for 11 months with AIM, through that desire I have realized an expectation to stir in my heart.
The expectation that God will provide all the funds needed for the entire 11 months, because I can’t do that alone. As I have two weeks to reach my second to last deadline, doubt begins to enter my mind more frequently than I’d like to admit.

“Am I really in God’s Will?”

“Did I leave a job and my community to reach a dead end just a few months in?”

“How will this look to the people who have supported me and the people who haven’t supported me?”

“After all, I made a choice between one good thing to do another good thing.” So I fret and wonder, where did I miss where He wants me? That’s a lot of pressure for a girl like me. I have made a mistake, I have assumed there is only one correct choice and in order to stay in God’s will I must figure out that exact choice.

There is never an exact formula for God’s Will. He always has a specific and detailed plan that never looks the same from one person to the next. I have to choose into believing He has complete control and is creating my path.

He collides the path of my life with others who need His hope and nudges me to share it with them. I have been able to see Him work in the lives of people in America, Nepal, India, and Thailand. I have met people that have impacted my life forever.

My hope is that God will continue to use me and provide for me on the field traveling with my team and other squad mates.

I know that wherever I am in the months to come is exactly where I am suppose to be. The same is true for where I have already been.

This month in Thailand I have sat in the back of a small Toyota Pick Up truck with my back against the cab facing the road behind us. This is an image that depicts my month not only because it’s how I spend my days traveling to ministry but also because it depicts how I want to have complete faith in Gods perfect timing in my life. I’m not always going to have the view of my future right in front of me with signs and blinking lights. Sometimes all I get is the view of the places God has already taken me through. That in itself is inspiring enough!
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