I have never been so excited, or convicted by something so beautiful in my life until now. I have been called to reach out on faith to journey across the world to 11 different countries to spread the love that the Lord has put into my heart through a missions trip called “The World Race”. I feel so humbled by this chance to go and give back to a world that needs to feel loved, that needs to feel joy and to be served. Even more so, I feel ready to be ministered to myself and shown more about who he is in my own life as well.
My walk with the Lord has been an amazing and hard journey that has been nothing short of rocky. I have been angry, ashamed, apathetic, and rebellious towards him, and have struggled with feeling unworthy and unlovable as a result. I’ve let the hurt that I felt growing up as child experiencing a multitude of pains such as abuse, being molested, and an eating disorder run my life in the past. I felt forgotten and unusable, and struggled with anxiety and depression, and still do at times.
How could a God who created a world so beautiful need or want to use something so tarnished? How could he even let that happen to me in the first place? Maybe I was just put here to experience pain? These are all questions I’ve asked myself. Only to hear God’s voice say that I AM worthy. I AM beautiful and loved so deeply by a creator and father soooo much more magnificent, and beautiful than my mind can even imagine.
It’s in the darkest of times that his light can shine the brightest in us. As I’ve grown, and fallen, and gotten pushed back up, I’ve really come to see this as the truth. He wants to use me as a beacon of light to not only help others but also to create a more full and strong spirit in me. He wants to show me that the cracked pieces are not to shatter all hope for wholeness, but how his love can seep through and fill me with his glory.
So here I am, ready to go to 11 different countries for 11 months to not only spread his love and be a light, but to also GROW in my faith. I want to be humbled and TAUGHT as well. My hope is to go with an open heart and mind, ready for whatever God has in store for me, and the tremendous amount of life that it is going to give on both ends. It excites me like nothing else in my life ever has. I believe with absolutely no doubt that this is EXACTLY where I am supposed to be. I am ready, and so immensely thankful to be a part of this journey!
I am trusting and believing that I will be able to raise the money needed for this trip, and am so grateful for anything contributed to help me reach my goal, whatever that looks like for you. Thank you so much if that is something you would like to do, whether that be financially, or through prayers.
Also, please feel free to email, call, or text me if you have any questions or want to grab a bite to eat or coffee with me to talk more about this journey or my walk with the Lord. I literally am so stinkin happy and excited to share about this, so please don’t hesitate!
