Life on the World Race isn’t always exactly as glamorous as what my instagram posts might make it out to be.
Some days are hard. Some days all I want to do is give up and go home.
Ministry is hard. Street Evangelism is not physically strenuous or draining, but emotionally every conversation can seem like a losing battle. Its hard to stay positive when you cannot always see the fruit of your labor.
Sometimes living in constant community with seven other women is hard. Language barriers are hard. It’s hard to be thrown completely out of my comfort zone all the time, its hard to not be able to talk to people at home whenever I want to, it’s hard to feel like I am enough- that I am a good teammate and a good servant of the Lord, and it’s hard when I feel like everyone at home is slowly forgetting me.
Through all of my struggles and all of the difficulty there is grace though. It’s okay that this all takes time to get used to.
There is always a lesson to be learned.
God has taught me a few valuable lessons in the last few weeks between Launch and serving here in Serbia…
1- I am GOOD enough
2- It’s okay to be a DAISY
3- I am not “TOO MUCH” for people to handle
4- I only need to worry about my audience of ONE
5- Modesty is HOT (literally)
I am learning very quickly that God wants me to fully rely on Him. He doesn’t just want me to trust that He will provide me with food, safety, and shelter; He wants me to know that He will take care of me in every way. When I am feeling alone, He wants me to know that He is with me. When I am worried about being away from my loved ones, He wants me to know that He will care for and comfort them just as I wish that I could. When I am having my doubts about being here, He wants me to have faith in his plan for my life and confidence in my place on Isquad on team Galilee. When I feel like I don’t have the right words to say, He wants me to trust that it is not about me at all. He wants me to know that He is using me to plant seeds in other people’s hearts and that He is going to do the rest of the work; He will bring the sunshine and the water along in His time.
Every day there are new challenges to face, but God has given me the strength that I need to endure. Yes, it has been hard more times than it has been easy, but I know that I am right where I need to be.
Even when I get discouraged God has surrounded me with an amazing team of women who are helping me get through.
Plus it helps that Serbia is so beautiful. Some of the friendships that I have made will definitely last throughout my lifetime. Our host this month is an incredible woman of God who has been so generous and taught me so much about my personal walk. I have been able to apply my passion and love for singing and music in a Gospel concert that I performed in with some of my teammates for over 60 people. AND we are going to get waffles and ice cream to celebrate my birthday tomorrow 🙂
