Matthew 16:25
“For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.”
Ever since I started going to Venture Church, I have gotten into my own little routine. Church Sunday mornings, one small group on Monday night, micro group on Tuesday night, another small group on Wednesday night, then worship practice on Thursday nights. Every week, the same routine. Now don’t get me wrong, I love it! I love having such an amazing group of people that I am able to be in fellowship with every week, but I can’t wait for the time when I will be able to completely lose myself. To live outside of my comfort zone and experience God in a way that I never thought was possible. I can’t wait to lose myself in another culture with people who are willing to do the same, all to grow closer to Jesus.
Most of my life was spent out of control and completely lost. I didn’t hold on to God or know how to create any order in my life. I think that’s why I cherish having my routine. For the first time, I’m truly happy and I don’t feel out of control. This is the only way that I’ve ever known Jesus though, being in an environment where everything is controlled and comfortable. I’ve never actually “lost myself” since becoming a true Christian. We just started a new teaching series at my church this week about this very thing. (Yes, that’s totally where I got the inspiration for this blog!) My pastor talked about giving up control and truly letting God take over things. Now, I don’t think Jesus necessarily meant that you have to die for Him in order to find your life, but He did mean that you have to stop holding on to all of the things that you we think will make our life complete. I’m sure that everyone got something different out of it but this is what I got. The World Race is my way of losing myself. It’s my way of completely letting go and putting everything in God’s hands. I have to give up my awesome small groups and amazing church, singing on my worship team and meeting with the amazing ladies in my micro group. I’m willing to though. I’m willing to let go of all of these things in order to build God’s kingdom around the world and find my true life in Christ.
I know that there are going to be challenges that I never thought I would face. I will see things I wish I never had to. This mission is going to take me so far from where I ever thought I would be, but it’s exactly what I need. I know what God looks like in my community, but I want to see what He looks like in others. I want to see how other people worship Him and what He means to them.
God had to take me out of my comfort zone in the first place in order to bring me to him, so it only makes sense to do it again! I won’t lie and say that I don’t feel any fear when it comes to completely losing myself, but I’m putting my life in the hands of God, and there’s no one I trust more with it 🙂
Below is my testimony video that I just finished making. It was so fun to film and I’m blessed to be able to share my story! You can hear about how God took my out of control life and gave me purpose and order. But above all, how He gave me grace and love, so take a look! As always, I love you all!
