White privilege – These include cultural affirmations of one’s own worth; presumed greater social status; and freedom to move, buy, work, play, and speak freely
When we landed in Bangkok and engaged in orientation with YWAM, our translator told us that “white” was synonymous with “beautiful.” It was not a slight on Americans or to break us of a pale pity party like we tend to do in the States. Ever since arriving in Southeast Asia, the emphasis on getting white skin has been overwhelmingly apparent in clothing protecting from the sun, cosmetics with “whitening gel” and career. We Americans are very well received with banquet lunches at the schools where we teach English for free, students want our Facebook but settle for autographs, gift baskets with cultural foods everywhere we go. It reminds me a bit of the Southern hospitality back home from Alabama, but to another degree.
Even if the locals do a double-take when they see our white faces driving by, or gawk and giggle when we walk down the street, it opens doors to share the deeper reason for our differences of faith. Our White Skin gives us access and the “privilege” of sharing the Bible’s Good News to hundreds of students who are the future leaders of Thailand. Our team had this opportunity yesterday during a Thai-American Cultural Exchange Program where there were dances, skits, songs and I shared part of my story with following the Lord. Sweat trickled ever so slowly down my neck, arms and legs as I prayed to God that the message wouldn’t get us kicked out of the Buddhist public school. It’s a vulnerable place with 650 eyes on you as you share life struggles and triumphs – and the difference between good people and godly people. I’m trusting that the Lord used the shared truths to bring comfort, light and faith to students and staff in the room.
Beauty is Only Skin Deep
What goes through a little girls head when she holds up her arm to mine and moans? Or when a 60yr old mom says “black” as she touches her hair with a scowl and holds my blonde strands like gold?
What is the difference between us? I could’ve been born in the third world with 8 siblings on a farm. I could’ve been born in a house with abusive, alcoholic, adulterous parents where the only safe place was the streets so I wouldn’t get beaten every night. I have met these children and adults and I see God’s redemptive work in their lives. Through the muddied past and brokenness, God has bound up their wounds and made them grow stronger, shine brighter, and love larger to reflect the glory of heaven while on earth. Humbling.
Who am I to think I earned or deserved my white complexion and comfortable American life? Sure, I chose to be an obedient daughter, hard-working student and diligent disciple. But who puts breath in my lungs every morning to sustain my work and faith? Who knew my words before one of them was formed? Who spoke to the flower and made it bloom? God has whispered to me of His perfect timing and healing love. I see it in the faces welcoming me to a church service in Thailand, in the wise wrinkles of our pastor, in the knowing smile of our cook, maid and mom for the month. I pray to see beyond the skin color and straight to the heart. A man plans his steps but The Lord determines the way. This year is teaching me to lay aside arrogance or achievement on my part, and boasting in the Lords strong work through my imperfections.
A book that helped me find new places of strength in community through authentic living is “Daring Greatly” by Brene Brown (Check out her TEDxTalk for incredible insight: http://youtu.be/iCvmsMzlF7o)
PRAISES:
– This month’s ministry is sharpening my skills of public speaking, teaching and organization
– Our host Pastor Ekkachai and his wife Air are wonderful and love showing us the popular sites and cuisine of Thai culture
– Everyone is in great health and able to exercise more freely here than in previous months
PRAYERS:
– Mariah is the last one on Team Undefined who needs to reach the October fundraising deadline of $11,000. Our team would not be the same without her!
– Endurance as we come up with lesson plans and testimonies for teaching English and preaching in Prisons
– Growing deeper in our faith. Thailand has incredible food, hospitality, fashion and more that feels like home and has the potential to distract me from growth and dependence on God.
