I’ve been thinking a lot about trust lately. What is it? What does it mean?
So to make things easier on myself, I began by looking up the word “trust” in various dictionaries and thesauruses. Here’s what I came up with.
- a firm belief in the honesty, truthfulness, justice, or power of a person or thing
- reliance on the integrity, strength, surety or ability of a person
- a person on whom one relies
- to believe
- have faith
- a confident expectation or hope
- the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed
- dependence on something
- allow to go somewhere or do something without misgiving or fear of consequences
- certainty
Depending on translation “trust” appears in the bible over 160 times (188 in the KJV). So if a word is mentioned that many times, do you think we’re supposed to pay attention? I do. I looked up some of those verses, and came to the conclusion that I know about trust. I can quote some of the verses from memory… but I think only my head has got it figured out. My heart is a little slower on this one.
Do I trust God? Yes.
Does my life show it? Not always.
Should that change? Absolutely.
Am I ready? You bet!
I truly am ready to start figuring out what it means to trust God with my entire being. It’ll be a hard adventure, but that’s nothing new. The definition that stuck out at me was “a confident expectation.” I never would’ve called myself a confident person, but there’s one thing in which I can be confident. God. That includes His love and His plan for my life.
I basically copied this out of my journal from the other day. And I’ve just been shown the awesomeness of God’s timing. Today, I struggled with trusting that the Race is truly Gods plan for me. Something came up that I would have the time and money for, if it weren’t for this. To be honest, it was really hard. It tore my heart to have to say no, and it still hurts. And yes, it made me question whether the Race was the right thing. And I came to the conclusion that choosing to trust God will be a daily occurrence for me. And I’m relying on Him to see me through. Yes, I fully believe the Race is the next step. Yes, I am excited.