There are times when the weight of what I’m about to step into seems to hit harder than others and the enemy seems to promptly rear his ugly head and without missing a beat he begins to remind me how totally unqualified and completely unequipped I am for this. I am untrained with no seminary degree, never done a mission trip this long and extensive before, and my past is so much less than perfect. So, why would God use me? It’s then when I must remind myself why in the world I am doing this this crazy race.
First, No, I am not perfect. Never have been and never will be. But neither are the great leaders in the faith that I look up to. Nor is He sending me out into a perfect world to speak to perfect people! We live in a broken world and according to Romans 3:23, “For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” This world is hurting and they need Jesus just as much as I do.
Second, I am unqualified! And I pray I never forget it because you see the instant I start thinking I have all the answers and have it all figured out is when I stop holding on to the Holy Spirit for dear life for what to do and say and think I alone have all the answers. After all its not knowledge that sets the prisoners free or binds up the brokenhearted but Jesus and the Holy Spirit speaking through us. As for the insecurity of not having a degree while I may not have a deep theological understanding of God, one thing I do know is the sound of my Shepard’s voice! I know the love of my Abba God. I know the deep revelation of His word He has given me in the intimate prayer times with Him. And how the power of His love changes hearts and sets people free! So, no it’s not a degree that qualifies someone to go into all the world but rather it is the Blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimonies that allows us to overcome and help others overcome. I know everything the Lord has done for me in my life. He saved me from my past, I am free and can rest in His love.
Finally, since Jesus so loved us, we are to love the world. The Bible is full of imperfect, unqualified, unequipped people that God used simply because they were willing to let Him use them. So yes, I believe God will use me simply because I am willing to let Him. My prayer for this trip is that He will break my heart for what breaks His. That He would allow me to be His hands and feet to every one of His sons and daughters that I come in contact with and that they would know the love of our great Father. I believe He will use me to change the world! Not because of anything I am doing but because of everything He’s done! Not because of anything I am but because of ALL He is! He is love, let love use me. And if I only touch one person, I know they mean the world to Him!
He is Love, let Love use me!!!
