This is a question I got a lot at training camp! (Which was also followed by shock and surprise, apparently I look 4-5 years younger, I’m not complaining?!?)
And to be honest… going into training camp it freaked me out… for you see I’m 30, and in a few short months I’ll be 31!
Most people would be like why does that matter! So you’re 30 get over it! I would really say it’s not being “30” that gets me… it’s going on the Worldrace with all these people who are so much younger than me!
These fears keep flashing through my head:
What if I can’t do stuff?
What if we have nothing in common?
What if I’m old and boring to them?
What if they think I have all this wisdom and I don’t?
The list goes on and on…
Really though what’s in a number?!?
Does it define me?
Does it change who I am?
Does it make me any less worthy in my Fathers eyes?
No to all of the above!
My Father made me who I am and I was born according to His plan! Which means I’m exactly the age I’m suppose to be!
“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.” Psalm 139: 13-14 NIV
He created me…
He sees me…
He says I’m worthy no matter what age I am or will be…
I have so much peace in that! He knows me throughly and intimately. He loves me just as I am. He sees my worth. He created me for a purpose.
It’s time for me to be obedient and
boldly in who I am, knowing that I am loved and worthy, and I have the
all- powerful, all-knowing, all-present God with me as I
So I’m taking my worries and fears to the Lord through prayer! He has a plan…and I’m trying to walk in obedience in that plan, leaning on Him for guidance!
