Something I’ve always struggled with is trust.
Whether its trusting someone, trusting love, trusting life in general, and even Jesus.
And if there’s anything major He’s doing on this mission trip, its breaking down those walls in my heart.
He’s tearing and breaking down those walls that are afraid to trust, afraid to love, afraid to feel, afraid to let Him in.
And He is doing it in the sweetest way.
This is truly the sweetest growing season.
I face so many situations throughout every day that I can’t do anything with.
I can’t fix them.
I can’t do anything.
I can only trust Him.
I can only trust that when He says He’s got me, He does.
When He says that He does things with my good in mind, He really does.
When He says He isn’t going to let me down, He’s not.
He’s teaching me to take things to Him first, before I ever take them to someone else.
Any situation or battle I feel coming my way, I automatically want to run to a human.
I want to seek their advice, seek their opinion.
When really, all that does is put uncertainty in my heart.
He’s teaching me to seek Him first, call out to Him first.
He’s teaching me that there is power in His name.
When I speak to Him, and say Jesus,
Let worry FLEE.
Let anxiousness FLEE.
Let uncertainty FLEE.
Let fear FLEE.
And let PEACE fill that worry.
Let STRENGTH fill that anxiousness.
Let SECURITY in Your name fill that uncertainty.
Let FULL TRUST and FULL LOVE fill that fear.
He answers those prayers.
I have times on this journey where the enemy was just putting all kids of negativity in my heart and mind.
When I speak those things above over the situation and over my life, He hears and He answers.
I have never felt more at peace than I do right now about every situation in my life.
He’s teaching me to be here.
To be right where I am in this season of life He has me in.
To let go of the future and focus on the here and now.
To sit with the girls on my team and enjoy their presence.
To enjoy their laughter.
To be with them in their tears and struggles.
To be here in this place.
To be here in the Philippines whole heartedly and not half way.
To be right here, in His presence with no distractions.
I hope this is gives you insight into what the Lord is doing and what you can be praying for. Hope you enjoy 🙂
Mal
