"this is true joy in life, the being used up for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy." ~ George Bernard Shaw
Over the past week, I’ve been preparing mentally, spiritually, and physically for my time in the mission field at World Race training camp. I depart for 11 months in 11 countries in a few short weeks & the reality of the calling are becoming very real. The emotions I’m encountering vary and change from day to day. I’ve learned so much, seen so much, felt so much during the training for this journey that I can’t begin to relay it or explain it to you. It’s an experience that’s personal to me, and one you must have for yourself because the experience is yours alone. I have had things lifted from my heart and spirit that will allow for a better me to enter this season of my life. Over the past week, I’ve experienced healing, redemption, grace, deliverance, growth, restoration, victory, and freedom. I have questioned my beliefs, sacrificed my sense of self, pushed past breaking points, and come out on the other side with faith and gratitude. Yet, much heaviness and urgency is on my heart that wasn’t there a week ago. I can’t explain the change that has occurred in my spirit, but I am so thankful for it. I feel called to be one of few that focuses on bringing the kingdom of heaven to earth, rather than waiting to arrive in heaven. I feel called to be a voice of hope to prostitutes and street kids who feel there’s no reason or need for hope. I feel called to be a ray of light for orphans who have no one to hug them or tell them they’re beautiful. I feel called to share the love of the one who loves all and cherishes all—the one who desperately wants a real relationship with each and every one of his children. I feel called to be a voice to the nations and bring change—even if it’s to just one life.
