When deciding on this journey I had a few goals & intentions: to serve others and live outside of myself, to grow in my faith and relationship with God, and to begin becoming the woman I was created to be in Christ. Little did I know that coming into it, the little faith I already had would be tested from the first day. As relationships at home became stronger, I began to question why I was leaving and giving up something tangible for something that is so often easy to question & intangible. There are times when I can feel God’s presence in a real way, when I believe I hear His voice and He confirms things to me in scripture, but I have yet to experience a real manifestation of the Holy Spirit. I am praying for God to show up for me, to let me know Him intimately, to let me experience a relationship with Him that no lie from Satan can distort. I believe God will move in supernatural ways this year before me- that I will see healing & miracles, that I may experience fruits of the spirit, & that I will come to know God in a new way. I am trusting in the little faith that I have; I am leaning on the willingness and desire I have to know God personally. I am trusting that he is pleased with me and will not leave me or forsake me but rather answer my plea for more of Him. I was awakened in the middle of the night and felt led to read Romans 4, which talks about Abraham being made righteous because of his faith. As I seek more faith, try to rely on my heart and spirit versus my human mind, I know that the only way I can truly find the Lord is through faith. I look forward to overcoming society’s influence to doubt, question, and intellectualize religion, and discovering a faith that nothing can hinder.
(We have been in Bucharest, Romania for 5 days now for launch- our introduction to the mission field, time to bond as a squad, & lots of worship and discussion. Tomorrow night, we take a 10-hr overnight train to Sofia, Bulgaria for our first month of ministry…details to follow!)
