This month in Thailand, has been more difficult than I imagined. Going into the race I thought it was going to be rough living conditions and ministry all day. This month was the complete opposite. My team along with two other teams stayed in a hostel with beds, showers, a kitchen, and the city of Chiangmai surrounding us. Along with street food for only $2, McDonald’s and Starbucks are right around the corner. You might be wondering why this month was difficult for me after everything I’ve just mentioned. Yes, I’ve been truly blessed to have all of these things but it’s brought about more laziness than productivity.
A lot of us at the hostel were so frustrated because we wanted more ministry. We wanted to build relationships and produce fruit. Coming from 3 months in Guatemala where we were seeing miracles and salvations every week to a place where we are just seed throwers is so different. The staff told us the first week here that in order to lead people to Christ you have to build relationships first and that takes time. In Guatemala we could walk into someone’s house and they would open up to us about their struggles but in Thailand it’s about building those relationships. Sometimes you have to be okay with just seed throwing and even if you don’t get to see fruit produced or reap the harvest, have hope that it will happen because you chose to throw that seed.
I’ve had a lot of free time this month and not a lot of structure. I’m the type of person who loves a busy schedule because if I don’t, I find myself being lazy all day. The Lord spoke to me this month and said “the way you act now is the way you will act at home.” So true. Where I’m staying is filled with conveniences and a lot of free time which is how it is at home. This month has been been difficult but I’ve grown so much in my walk with God. I’ve learned how to truly depend on him and not anything or anyone else.
