This mission is mine, if I chose to accept it. But it will self destruct without your support.
I haven't been wanting to blog this, but I feel like I should let you know exactly how I am feeling.
Discouraged.
I have been feeling this way for a few weeks now. There is just a lot to do and I feel like I am alone in this.
I need to get vaccinations ASAP because some are 2 and 3 series shots and I have about 3 months left to get them. I still need to get a lot of supplies for this mission trip and my funds have sat at the same low number for over a month now. I just thought more people would want to support me in this.
Not only do I need to raise 6,000 in just about 3 1/2 months, I still need to raise even more funds to help me pay for my vaccinations and supplies. My paychecks are not that big so there is no way I can cover those on my own. I am trying to get people to help me fundraise but I am not hearing back on anything. I can send out more support letters, but since the first 55 I sent out were of little success I really don't want to rely on that.
I am trying this weightloss fundraiser and I have so far lost 7 pounds! But I don't have very many people pledging like I thought I would. To call me desparate only scratches the surface. I really feel like this is where I am supposed to go. But without support and encouragement from anyone it is really easy to lose sight of that.
What's funny is that when I first started really thinking about going, funds were the last thing on my mind. I thought this would be way easier than it really is.
I'm am just trying to be real here. I feel like I need to let people know what is really going on inside my head.
Satan is trying to bring me down.
Well I wont let it happen. I am pulling out all the stops. I will be talking about fundraising and this mission trip nonstop. Get ready. This is all you are about to be able to think about! I'm going to step up my game starting right now.
I WILL go on the World Race. Not in September or January. I AM leaving in July. I AM GOING! I can't do this alone. Please help me.
There will be about 80 of you reading this blog. I don't have many supporters. 80 is like 100 more than I have now. (I do have some people supporting me, and if you are one of them I can't even thank you enough for your support.) My supporters get a lovely personal letter handwritten from me with my many thanks. If you want that, you know what you have to do! 😉
I'll be even more real with you right now. I have a deadline to make in less than 2 months. That deadline is $3,500 by the middle of May. I have been sitting at $305.20 for over a month. That number HAS to get bigger or I don't go on this.
I have already made beautiful friendships with the G Squad (my group leaving in July.) I want to go with them. I want to leave in July. Please make this a reality for me.
I can't do this without you,
Malerie
