Matthew 14: 28-3228 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” 29 He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” 31 Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased.
When I first felt the call to the World Race, I went all in. It wasn’t one of those, this looks cool, I think I should do this kind of moments. It was more of a crying uncontrollably, I have to do this before my heart pounds out of my chest moments. I applied and prayed. I prayed that if It was really God telling me to go, they would accept me…and then I waited. Like Peter, I asked God to prove it was Him calling me out onto the water. I was willing to step out, but the order had to be from Him. When I finally got the call, I felt… Like I got the answer I already knew I was going to get..for days I would laugh and cry with joy at random times just thinking about it. I was confident and sure of this call. People would say things like, “Well if you can’t raise all the money, it’s just God’s way of telling you He doesn’t want you to go”.. And my response would always be, “I prayed that God would have them accept me if it was His will…and they did so I WILL raise the money”. But then I looked at what I was doing.. I looked at the career that I was leaving, I looked at the fear in my mother’s eyes when she asked me why I had to go, I looked at the almost $20,000 that I needed to raise and I became panicked and like Peter I began to sink. It’s easy to look at Peter and think, “You were already walking on the water. Why did you have to panic? You would have been fine had you kept your eyes on Jesus and kept walking!”… Until you realize that you are Peter. I will be eating foods that I would have never imagined ( I mean one girl ate armadillo), sleeping in a tent when I’ve never even camped, and sharing squatties with spiders, roaches and other unmentionables. I will be sharing with and loving on people I may not understand or with those who break my heart. I may get sick and miss home and I will most definitely be changed. I don’t tell you this to say I am brave, because I am not brave. I couldn’t do this on my own. Think of Peter again, God called him out of a boat in some pretty rough weather to walk on water..think about that! Talk about crazy and scary. Something he couldn’t have possibly done on his own, but then he wasn’t on his own. Had he not panicked and began doubting he could do it, he would have continued to be carried by Jesus across that water. But he didn’t, instead he cried out for the Lord to save him. When Jesus did rescue him He said, “oh ye of little faith, why did you doubt”… In today’s time that would sound a lot like: “Peter don’t you know I have you? You don’t have to do anything; just have faith and walk. I will do it through you… I won’t let you sink”. Every time I doubt my ability to do this or raise the money I can almost picture him chuckling at me, shaking His head and saying the same thing. See I know God will come through for me, so my worrying is pointless. He called me to this and He will see me through this!
