Something me and every person on my team is dealing with. Yes it’s very real and yes it’s very hard to deal with.
On the first day of training camp we had a parents going away dinner. During it I leaned over and told Michael, “It’s hitting me that I’m not going home with you guys. Like I’m staying here and….you guys are going home without me.” With my family still with me my homesickness was already starting. To be honest after that during training camp I was too busy to miss them. Any free time we had was spent bonding with my team. At night I would FaceTime for a bit and that was about it.
During week one I held it together pretty well. Because of the time difference when I get WiFi it’s afternoon for me but 1 am back home. This past Sunday I got to FaceTime them for the first time (other than my hospital visit, which is another story). It was the next few days after talking to them that was the hardest. On FaceTime you see how happy they are and all the things you are missing out on at home. You get to hear the happy encouraging words about how proud they are of you. You get to tell them ALL about your trip and you’re amazing new team. Then the next few days you just feel like somethings missing.
I talked about it with some girls on my team and they have made me feel like I’m not alone. Throughout the day I’ve realized there is no reason to be home sick when I have other people to focus on. I am my best self when I put my 100% self into whatever I’m doing. Whether that is feeding kids, painting a room, or having a game night with my team.
God has really been challenging me to focus on being in the moment and focus on the positives. He has showed me that the good out weighs the bad, it always will because the good comes from God and the bad comes from the enemy. Just having that daily reminder has changed my thought process completely.
Here are some things y’all can be praying for:
- Sickness on my team
- Keeping a positive attitude even in the hard situations
- The people I speak to will open up their hearts to God
- God will continue to give me patience on this trip
- Unity
Thank y’all so much for keeping up with my crazy journey. I love you guys!
