Wow this one is tough to write.
I found the Lord, or I should say He claimed my life when I was about 20, so the years before that were a bit messy. Shame
I always said if I could go back and do it again, I want to know the Lord earlier, but honestly I’m grateful for the story we have.
Let’s talk about why I always said I’d change my story.
I attached so much shame to what I did before I knew the Lord and sometimes even after I knew the Lord.
Shame.
Ugh I hate that word, Satan uses it to constantly lie to the children of God.
What I did with my stroy is compair it to one i deemed perfect, and because I didnt measure up to that perfection I found what I did to be ugly and dirty.
I blamed myself for everything that has happened to.me and I told myself I would never measure up to be good enough because I’m a used and dirty Christian.
But the Lord sad I am blameless, pure, and made new.
Why did i believe the lies, knowing what the Lord said about me?
Shame.
Here’s how it works.
When you tell yourself something long enough you believe it to be truth.
You become comfortable with that lie and you learn to live with it.
You get so used to it that it becomes familiar.
When real truth comes to say otherwise your almost apprehensive to receive it because that means the thing that has become such a part of you is being taken away and your left with an empty vulnerable space.
Well the Lord wants to fill that space.
What lie have you let become your shamefull truth?
How can I pray for you through it?
