Okay where still here, the whole empty vessle is going to be a while.
I will say the Lord has been constantly uncovering parts of myself I didnt know were there let alone hidden.
One of the things He let me know is how deeply I cling onto the lie of disappointment, whether I will disappoint someone or someone will disappoint me, I’ve lived me life filtering everything I do through that lenses.
It sounds bad, but I honestly didnt even know I did that until the Lord sat me down and showed me that I even did it with Him. Thats how I filtered the Lords goodness.
The image He gave me is this.
Imagine walking into a bakery and you heard this cake was really good, so you baught a slice of cake, you bring it home but because you dont want to be disappointed in the cake you never eat it, you tell your friends about the cake being really good, you tell them to buy it, they eat it and say it’s really good, you rejoice with them, but you never actually taste the cake. You just go about assuming it’s good.
That’s what I did with the Lord, I closed my eyes and declared His goodness, I screamed it will all my heart, I believed in His goodness He showed to my friends. I even invited others to partake in His goodness. But I never uncovered my eye to see His goodness. I chose to protect myself in case what I saw lead to disappointment. What an interesting thing to do, declair something you never allow yourself to experience.
Wow right, that’s a lot.
The Lord has ushered me into uncovering my eyes and seeing His goodness first had, no assumptions, Hes inviting me to taste and see that He is good.
So I know the Lord is good because He gave me life,He died on the cross and He chooses me constantly.
I think this is more of a matter of knowing the Lord is good to me. Knowing He has good plans for me, without filtering my view through the fear of disappointment.
I am so excited for this next season, to experience the Lords goodness first hand.
What are the filters your using to make life a little less scary?
