Hello friends!
For this blog I wanted to share something special with you. I wrote this letter to myself the day I switched squads before we launched from America, September 11th, 2017. Looking at this letter and thinking of this day is overwhelming considering the amount of change I have experienced since this. I would not have wanted my gap year experience to have been to any other countries with any other people. I love my squad and I love each country we visited. I can see the good fruit produced from being obedient to switch squads, and I see why the Lord placed this specific one on my heart. I am so grateful for every friendship I have gained and every story I have been able to hear.
Dear (future) me,
Right now, it’s starting all over again. Meeting new people, learning their stories, and learning how to trust people. What do you think of it now? Do you look back and wonder what if? Or did you embrace it and love it? I pray for strength for you as you journey this year. What was the best thing that happened? When was the loneliest time? In what area have you grown the most? I hope this year was full of discipleship, joy, hardship, laughter, miracles, and patience. Right now, I feel lonely, but I hope that changes soon.
What are your plans now? Do you still want the same things? Did God show up for you over these past nine months? I think I’m asking myself these all these questions because I don’t really have any encouraging or wise words right now. I feel very hurt and sad. I’m trying to allow myself to feel. I’m so confused and angry. I want to be on my own squad. But I must trust God right now- but it feels like He is no where to be found. I know this will pass. I know He really is here. Keep trusting and keep giving.
Maggie
In other news, tomorrow morning I head home! We leave Montenegro and have a layover in Russia, then I will land in New York City June 2nd at 11:02 pm. On June 3rd I will take a flight from NYC at 8:30 am to Charlotte, North Carolina. I will arrive in Charlotte at 10:30 am. I can’t believe I am almost home… I can’t wait to see all of you. I can’t wait for all of the hugs!
All my love,
Maggie
