“Trust in the Lord with all your heart & lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him & He shall direct your path.” Proverbs 3:5,6
How many of us know those verses? Have memorized it since birth? Whenever I think of this verse, I hear that little Sunday School diddy I learned to memorize it. (It’s stuck in my head now)
But, it has come to my attention, that I have been leaning on my own understanding. Throughout this whole (short, I might add) process of fundraising & raising prayer support & a team to follow alongside me, I have been SO stressed out. To the point of tears, breakouts & some other things I shall not mention.. 😉 I told people that God had it, but in my heart & mind, I was so anxious about what Maggie is capable of doing. What else can Maggie do? How can Maggie do more? Can Maggie make one more freaking pallet sign? Maggie has to be superwoman in order to get everything done! & I have been so stressed, almost to the point of doubting the things God has laid on my heart, & whether or not He really has called me to it. & God has been so faithful with me- so patient. Almost everyday reminding me of His promises & snippets from His word. & with that little verse I have so taken for granted my entire little life… “Lean not on your OWN understanding…” I came to a slight breaking point before God where I said “Lord, this world race is yours. If you raise the money, you raise the money. If not, you are still good, and I will still praise you.” & guess what? I’m not stressed or panicked anymore! Not to say that that will never come back, because I am human, but I know it is a continual thing of me placing it into the hands of Jesus. Daily. That took humbling myself before the King of Glory & placing my understanding in Him.
I NEED Jesus. I NEED His reassurances and His guiding hand in EVERY aspect of my life.
“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.” Philippians 4:19,20
