So many thoughts.

(welcome to randomness)

 

thursday the 11th: woke up at 6am, went to see mom’s new work, had a family dinner at mom’s that night.

friday the 12th: ran around with mom during the day, went to family yardsale, ate lunch with mrs. cindy and mom at el rey’s, worked on wedding stuff, went to cheatham county footbal game at night, stayed the night with dad.

saturday the 13th: tyson woke me up with water, shea and i took the ranger through the trails in the back of the house and went fishing…i caught one, went to eat vietnamiese food with yvonne and shea, spent time at nana’s, went to grandparent’s church, stayed with grandparent’s over night.

sunday the 14th: church in the morning with grandparents, dad’s birthday party, played “who can hit the ping pong ball the hardest” at each other with tyson and shea, gathering at ashley and kelsey’s house that night, stayed with mom.

monday the 15th: i stopped and watched football and read all day…and went running.

tuesday the 16th: got to grandma’s at 6:30am, went to see uncle’s new house, went shopping for a dress for the wedding, went to dad’s.

 

so i am over jet lag…finally.  i am tired of eating so much food but not tired of eating the food i have.  i see people i know everywhere i go…wal-mart, running in the neighborhood, restuarants, everywhere.  i still haven’t seen everyone i wish to…this takes time. 

 

yes, rubie everything has snuck up on me…it keeps coming…but i just punch it down.

 

i feel like america is the hardest country i have been to all year even though i know the language, i know the culture, everything is familiar but the weight of it all on me is huge.  i guess because it’s personal to me…what happens here is personal.  it’s not something i will leave in a few weeks…i have to face all it’s challenges, i have to deal with all it’s ups and downs.  to everyone at home it may seem as though things are fine with me but really i’m having a hard time.

 

i miss the Body sooooo much!!!!!

i wish i were there with you guys but it is better that i am here for many reasons.

i am reading your blogs and watching your videos…you guys are doing great!

 

hey this is magens little sister shea have you ever sat next to magen while she describes in great

detail what her vomit tastes like? HELP ME!

 

i’m back. 

 

have you ever had to listen to magen ramble on about getting -pregnant and getting married in that order (this is a lie it’s the other way -magen) for a while tho she is being seer yus tho she probly will never have enuf time to do either. (probably true -magen)  -from tyson.

 

okay now i’m back.

 

i feel overwhelmed and bombarded.

i want this world to slow down.

i forgot how nice it was to have a place of my own, to be settled though i don’t have and am not yet.

i am actually doing well regardless of difficulties…it’s good to see what i will come home to.

 

i love listening to country music!

the sky was absolutely gorgeous yesterday.

i want to go get alone for a while.

everything is too loud here.

wow do we own some stuff.

 

i was thinking the other day about what has been used to refine us through this year…obviously the

  Lord had His hand on the process but what are the things He used?

and  what do people in other countries have that refines them or keeps them in the fire?

 

we have had our living conditions, the food we eat, the people we live with, the community we live in,

the ministries we have worked with,the people we have met, and

the situations we have faced.

 

they have their poverty, their governments, their wars, their religions,  their lack of opportunity, etc.

 

so when we get home at the end of this race what will we be a part of that will keep us being refined, that

will continue to challenge us and mold us into sons and daughters?  some natural things will

take place like marriage and having children (this is a huge refining process).

some of us will make bad decisions and have to face the consequences…going through our own personal fire.

some fires are bad and some are good but regardless we can learn and grow through them.

i just want to always be in community with believers and go through whatever fire comes our way together.

 

okay bed is calling at 7:40pm.  goodnight.  or at least getting off the computer is calling:)

 

fyi: my dress is super cute!