I have been home for the last 2 months and it never felt like it was over because my squad was still in Botswana and I wasnt able to have an ending in that season of my life; so much that I avoid doing this blog for the past two months but today is the day I write this blog.
The world race wasnt just a mission trip where you go and help people, or preach all the time, or heal people everyday, or at least it wasnt for me. The race was the best months of my life, it changed my heart, it changed my mind, it change my direction and it changed my relationship with God. I dont want to make this blog to long but I do want to explain to you each different change in my life.
My heart.
From a young age I knew in my heart that my purpose was to go other places to work with orphans and children from different places, but during this months God marked my heart with a fire for the people that society is rejecting, for the people that doesnt have home, he put a fire in me for refugees, and there is where God took my heart too.
My mind.
I was exposed to reality; the reality of been by my self, the reality of the suffering that there is in the world. Now my mind understands God a little bit better, I understand His sadness and His Joy; I understand His Fury and I His love. I would never change anything of what I learned.
My relationship with God.
Before the race I was trying to figure out how my relationship with God would look like for me, how was I going to connect with him, I was afraid of the things that were inside of me. But let me tell you when He wants you, He gets you, I experience pan and joy at the same time when He was healing my heart and my soul from the past in Malaysia and that made my heart open to new dimensions of His love and our relationship became more intimate and change my perspective of how to live the life that He gave me.
I may be still an introverted shy girl, but God set a fire in me and has gave me the boldness to fight for His kingdom and for His people.
The race tough me to be the best version of my self, it allowed me to go out of my comfort zone and be who He wanted me to be, to become the person I am today.
Thank you for your support on this adventure.
love,
Mafer
