So here I am writing this blog from the comfort of my bed, definitely not what I had planned; if I was living my plans right now I would be living in my tent, with no running water in the middle of the desert in Botswana, but that was MY plan, and not HIS.
During my time in Malaysia I healed from the past, I grew closer to God, I learned to love my prayer time, and my hunger for the Word of God became real and big; I also learned to love living in community, for the first time in my life I had people pouring wisdom, love and knowledge into my life, God gave me incredible friendships inside my squad, people that I knew I could go to if I needed anything. He also gave me new friends in Malaysia, friends I love with all my heart, people that were investing time in my life because they wanted to see me grow, but in the middle of all of these I lost the focus of God, I relay my growth and myself in my community and not on God; and that was when He started to talk to me about what I was going to do in the next stage of my life, and I thought that it was after the 9 months but He had other plans for my life.
Three weeks before leaving Malaysia I receive a call from my mom telling me that my Botswana visa was getting very hard to get and that we were going to try to get it once we were in South Africa, but there was still a chance for me not to get it so I would be going home after my time in SA. Not what I wanted and not what people was expecting from me. Telling my team was the first step and then telling my closest friends which wasn’t the easiest thing to do, but I did it. In the next 3 weeks I started to pray so I could get my visa, but I realize that I was praying for My plans and not for God´s plans, so I changed my prayer and it became about me asking God to do with my life what He wanted. I asked Him to give me, my family and friends peace about whatever it was that He had planned for me, and as I started to pray that day after day I started to feel peace. I knew that whatever happened with my visa it was His Purpose in my life, and I knew that if His plans were for me to come back to Guatemala was because He wanted to use me to be a light in my family, to be a light in my country; but the peace didn’t took away the pain and the sadness of having to say goodbye to my friends when the time came.
A couple of hours before flying to SA my mom called me and told me that my visa was a no, that I could try next week but I knew that this was God confirming that my time in the race was over. The hardest thing for me about all this was leaving my friends, was knowing that I wasn’t going to have a community anymore, was knowing that I was going to be alone in my country without my friends, without the people that God gave me in the last year. I love them and their families very much, I never thought that I was going to love them like I do. I had a lot of time to think on Why God send me back home and in prayers I got my answer, He wants me to apply everything He tought me in Malaysia here in my country with the people that I have around me, but most of all He wants me to relay only in Him, He wants me to trust only on Him. So like you know by now I am back in Guatemala trying to find a new way, I know that God has huge plans for my life in this new season; I would love if you can pray for me so I can grow in Him and that I will trust Him no matter what.
I am going to write about my beautiful experience in SA and with the PVT in a following blog, thanks to all for being part of this amazing adventure God allowed me to have.
Gap C:
The race gave me more than what I thought I was going to get out of it, it gave me a better and deeper relationship with Him and it gave me the friends that I never thought I would have, it gave me brothers and sisters that will be with me for a life time. I love you all with all my heart and I know that I will see you all very soon. Gap C is always going to be part of my story, and part of my future.
With Love, Mafer
